Episode Archive
Episode 1: Who/What/Why Are You Sad
Welcome! This is Only Slightly Dead Inside, a podcast putting the fun in functional depression.
Meet Julienne and Nikka, learn a little more about them, and find out why it's important to be honest about living with depression and anxiety.
Episode 2: Therapy!
Julienne and Nikka talk about the long and winding road to finding a good therapist, why it's important to talk about going to therapy, and how therapy is for everyone - no really - EVERYONE.
Helpful links: https://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/cognitive-behavioral-therapy/about/pac-20384610
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/cognitive-behavioral-therapy
Episode 3: Perception vs. Reality
Depression and anxiety: What do they look like? Do they look like anything? Let's find out!
Julienne and Nikka talk about the ways that depression and anxiety manifest themselves in everyday life, discuss some of their favorite depictions of depression and anxiety in the media, and how sometimes it's hard to see the forest for the trees when your brain is doing a lot of extra work.
Episode 4: Meds!
This week, Julienne and Nikka tackle medication: How they found meds that worked for them, what the process was like, and how finding the right balance is imperfect, often frustrating, and ever-evolving - JUST LIKE BEING HUMAN!
Episode 5: The Worst Vortex
Nikka and Julienne discuss the worst vortex: where anxiety and depression come together in a terrible swirl of mayhem and destruction. Also: Our least favorite words, Nikka as the grammar police, and why it's important to take two minutes for yourself (even if you don't have a gnat in your eye).
Episode 6: We Are All Conspiracy Theorists
When you have depression and anxiety, it's like there are tiny conspiracy theorists living in your brain, wearing tinfoil hats and giving you mountains of evidence to prove you're the worst.
This week, we tackle that: Why are we so mean to ourselves? Why do we feel like happiness has to be earned? Are the tinfoil-hat-wearing conspiracy theorists right? Only way to find out is to listen.
Episode 7: Guilt Ostrich
What IS a guilt ostrich? You'll find out.
This week, we dive into what a dissociative episode feels like and the tricks we use to put our brains and bodies back in the same room when things get weird. Plus there's a little bit of self-care chat!
Episode 8: No is a Complete Sentence
Like it or not, we're getting into the holiday season - and sometimes, that means having some awkward conversations. Nikka and Julienne try to figure out how they might want to set boundaries around talking about depression, anxiety and therapy, as well as reminding each other (and you!) that no is a complete sentence and you've gotta take care of you.
Article mentioned: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/presence-mind/201611/holiday-boundaries
Episode 9: …whatever the end of that sentence is
You know the deep and terrifying existential dread that comes from the most mundane marks of the passage of time, like running out of toilet paper?
That can't just be us.
Well, we start there and go everywhere - from whatever "better" means to why it's a good idea to have plans after a big interview/audition/date.
Episode 10: Nobody’s Grading This
It's our tenth episode!
This week: Recent examples of real-life situations where we let our brains get in the way of how we wanted to act, the delicate balance between overt self-promotion and simple sharing on social media, and feeling like somebody's grading your life but you're not sure who.
Happy New Year, friends! We'll catch you in 2020. In the meantime, reach out if you need us. We're here.
Episode 11: Ambition
Happy...New Year? (It's February, has the window of time passed for Happy New Year? Maybe.)
Either way: We're baaaaack! And we missed you.
It's a doozy this week - diving into the nature of ambition, how much of ourselves we show to the outside world (rather, how much our brains ALLOW us to show), and how hard it is to be in process as humans.
We want to know what you think about all this, as it's a topic that is ever-evolving for us. Get in touch and let us know!
Episode 12: The Shame Monster
You hear us talk about it a lot, so we thought we'd define and discuss the Shame Monster.
The Shame Monster sucks. Like, a lot. It robs us of the ability to be our fullest selves, and that's no fun at all.
Join us while we unpack the inertia of shame, the different ways it manifests, and how it makes us feel pointless and unacceptable - among many other things - all while trying to convince us it doesn’t exist. Fun!
Episode 13: Inner Monologues
Julienne found an article saying that not all people have inner monologues. This blew our everlovin' minds - what must it be like to not have a voice in your head telling you you're the worst all day?
We speculate, seething with jealousy. Join us!
Episode 14: Coronanxiety
What can we even say? It's all awful. Even since we recorded this episode March 14, so much has changed and so much of what was okay is different - so forgive us for having recorded this in the same room. We're #socialdistancing now, and we'll figure it out as we go.
Anyway. How are you doing? We're...full of anxiety. And thought that we should probably talk about this unprecedented event in global history. So we did.
Here are some of the things we talk about:
How To Snap Your Parents Out Of Their Coronavirus Denial
Why Are So Many Boomers In Denial About Coronavirus?
And some resources:
Episode 15: What Is Time
Oops. We accidentally took a few weeks off while adjusting to the new normal.
Because what even is time right now? Unclear.
Anyway. We're here, and we talk about everything from collective grief to wiping down boxes to the 7pm clap that is the only thing that feels like NYC normal right now.
Plus: Animal Crossing, virtual game nights, and balancing being a good citizen with taking care of our mental health.
What are you doing to keep sane? Let us know. We'd love to hear.
A great article we mention: That Discomfort You’re Feeling Is Grief